This week has defeated me.
I've got nothing left.
I went there. I cried all the tears. I scraped the bottom. It terrified me.
I hope to be back next week, one week before spring, with more hopeful tales of life on our farm. But until then you'll find me here, gathering my strength, reading chapters, sipping tea, knitting rows, and looking out the windows at the wind dancing through the tops of the trees in the forest.
Be kind to yourselves friends, and look after each other.
xx
You my dear internet friend, be kind to yourself. I'm sorry to hear you've been having such a tough time. May that space bring you healing and the wind blow those clouds through quickly to expose that blue sky that is always underneath somewhere.
ReplyDeleteCheers Kate
Please look after YOU, dear Kate.
ReplyDeleteKate......i hear you and i understand the depths you reached.......your photo, your space.... looks like a perfect spot to seek solace.....Bless xxoo
ReplyDeleteWill you accept a great, big virtual hug from the other side of the world? Hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteXx
ReplyDeleteDrinking tea, knitting, reading and resting up sounds like the perfect thing to do. Love to you from a hilltop in NZ.
ReplyDeleteSending you the BIGGEST hug xx
ReplyDeleteSending you hugs and a sunshiny week (both figuratively & literally) ahead. Crappy weeks aren't fun, but they make the good weeks feel even better xxx
ReplyDeleteLook after yourself, rest and take care
ReplyDeleteSending white light and love. xxx
ReplyDeleteThat little corner, though. Al the best, there.
ReplyDeleteI realy love you
ReplyDeleteLove to you beautiful Kate..Michele xo
ReplyDeleteHugs and be kind to yourself x
ReplyDeleteNot long now Kate Spring is just around the corner, you’ve done so well this year.
ReplyDeleteBig hug and a lot of sunshine from the other side of the world!
ReplyDeleteRest and regroup, you can do this! Sending a big gentle hug from the UK
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better very soon. HUGS!
ReplyDeleteHugs xx
ReplyDeleteLife is high and life is low...your serenity is the only thing you have control over...so glad you are taking a break..xoxox
ReplyDeleteI think you've just described one of the best healing lists there is. Take care and let it happen x
ReplyDeleteWhat can we do other than support each other in any way we can, even if it's just with kind words. There are times when your pictures and words help smooth the roughness from my days. Sending you love and light from VT, USA.
ReplyDeleteHopefully this bad patch will soon pass. Sending you a big hug and heaps of positive thoughts. You are an inspiration to me and so many others. Feel better soon Kate. 🤗
ReplyDeleteSounds like you are doing the right things to get you to a happpier place. Don’t beat yourself up about the things you haven’t done and can’t do just be positive about what you have achieved, a post no matter how short is still a post! I still appreciated it as it’s good to know others have bad weeks too, we all do. Love from the other side of the world and sending many positive vibes your way x
ReplyDeleteOnly a day ago I was suicidal but today was my birthday (I HATE my birthday) but I turned up, got out of bed and got on with it. I had fun with hubby as we visited cafes, ran in the rain and I felt attached to the world now and then (very rare for me). What I'm trying to say is, I have been at the lowest point, unresponsive, catatonic, suicidal and it just takes one, just one ok day to make life worth the struggle. You will be yourself again, never lose hope. I still meditate for your soul tonight before I sleep x
ReplyDeleteRest.self care. We have been in your spot its not fun but it will get better.
ReplyDeleteSad to hear this - take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteEven if it doesn't seem like it right now, it will get better.
I always read your blog as a treat on Friday evening:) but tonight I am a bit worried about you.
ReplyDeleteJust a bit because I know you got this crazy thing called life figured out. It will be ok. Big hugs.
Look after yourself. We'll be here when you return.
ReplyDeleteOne stitch at a time. Look after yourself. xx
ReplyDeleteA big hug from the other side. I hope you'll get better soon.
ReplyDeleteDear Kate, thinking of you and sending you hugs and big slices of comfort-pie. Hope you you can regain your strength to come out of this valley of defeat, stronger and more optimistic. I wish you many little joyful bits and pieces that come together as the light at the end of the tunnel.So thoughtful of you telling us to look after ourselves but please hold this thought infront of a mirror or any shiny surface and do whatever is helping you and take care and give your family and nearby friends the opportunity to help you through this.Hugs from Germany
ReplyDeleteWallow in it Kate, don't resist it. You'll find it will pass through easier and you'll be stronger afterwards. And it IS only temporary. You are such a light to so many of us out here in the e-world - let us shine light back at you. With much love xxx
ReplyDeleteSending you strength and light. Lots of people are thinking of you Kate. Take care and I hope this week is a better one. Courtney.
ReplyDeleteSorry you're feeling sad, lovely lady, hope you'll feel happy again soon. Springtime will lift your spirits hopefully, just as we in the UK head into autumn. Sigh. Still, we had the best summer - fingers crossed yours is great too x
ReplyDeleteBreathe in and out and when you've got that figured the rest will come. Sending you calming and healing thoughts from the other side of the planet but from a heart as tender as yours and all who read your lovely words and watch as your life unfolds in its perfect imperfection. XXXXXXXX
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. I've been there. Remember, everything changes. Sending love from California.
ReplyDeleteOh Kate...your post is so raw and honest. My husband and I are celebrating our 25th wedding anniversary in Daylesford this weekend. I will be thinking of you. x
ReplyDeletei hope you are looking after yourself, im feeling a bit that way myself xx
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