For all your messages and stories and thoughts and wishes and prayers, thank you!I'm doing OK. Living the in between week; after hospital but before the appointments. I'm feeling better as each day goes past. I'm trying my hardest to stay positive, to stay in the moment, to surround myself with goodness and love. And when I absolutely cannot, I am acknowledging the thought, seeing it for what it is, noticing my reaction to it, and then letting it flow down the stream. Flow down the stream stupid lump!
I'm not great at this stream thing but I know it's worth working on.
I'm not great at taking it easy either, but my farmer boy is insisting and I'm listening.
I just want to get through this. I just want to finish picking all those hazel nuts, cleaning up that orchard jungle, and baking some hazel nut biscotti.
Biggest love
xx
Gorgeous light, girls, trees & hazelnuts Kate! Sending you strength and happy biscotti making x
ReplyDeletethe waiting time, I know it's the worst one!!!
ReplyDeletetake care and prepare loads of yummy biscotti!!!
xxxxx Ale
I really don't know what to say Kate. I just read your last post. I feel for you and your lovely family, for having to wait and for the panic and horror you must have gone through. I'm sure everything will be alright. Take care and enjoy your biscotti making xxxx
ReplyDeleteNothing to say except big love back to you as always xxx
ReplyDeleteif it helps at all (and I know everyone is different) I was told when I had a lump also that pain was not really an indicator and meant that far more likely due to an infection of some kind and will resolve. Thinking of you x
ReplyDeleteLove and light, it's all I know to say, really. Just, love and light xx
ReplyDeleteKeeping my fingers crossed for you, Kate. The waiting is the hardest. take care, get plenty of rest and enjoy the here and now.
ReplyDeleteTake care Kate and listen to that farmer boy of yours.....take it easy. Hazel nuts, yum yum. xxoo
ReplyDeleteHello, what a beautiful life.
ReplyDeleteWhen I had Amelie I had mastitis 4 times in 3 months. She was feeding like a crazy little calf and still I was getting terrible lumpy boobs and infections. And you know what I partially attribute as a cure? I developed a kind of 'boob zen yoga'. I just decided one day that I was going to mentally picture all the infection leaving my body and flowing out through my nipples. A bit like your flowing stream I guess. And I swear it worked!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, what a time you are having. I've just been catching up on your blog. The best thing is you have discovered it and that it is being dealt with. What ever it is you will be able to handle it together as a family, you will all support each and come out the other side. We are at much the same stage of unknowing and shock with our youngest at the moment, so I know where you are coming from. xxxxx
ReplyDeleteOh Kate, huge hugs Lovely. Having been in that waiting place twelve months ago, and subsequently been put throught the wringer with treatment I can only tell you that you are stronger than you know. Just take it one day at a time...which you seem to be doing beautifully. Am so glad that you are cocooned in love and have a fantastic support network. Am thinking of you every day...xxx Em
ReplyDeletebiggest love to you Kate!!
ReplyDeleteand I love these pictures so much x
biggest love right back at you
ReplyDeleteI had a breast cancer diagnosis last year, detected very early, surgery, radiation treatment, now off the hook. I took each day as it came, and tried my best to keep up with most normal things in life. So far I have not had follow-up mammogram or ultrasound, so I am swanning around this wonderful country of ours on a caravan holiday. From Sunshine Coast Qld, to Adelaide, environs, along the Great Ocean Road and now crawling up the NSW Coastline to home. Even if your lump does turn out to be a nasty, treatments these days are so much better and you are young enough to get through it all. My fingers are crossed for you!
ReplyDeletesending lots of positive thoughts your way x
ReplyDeleteYou're in my thoughts, make sure you take it as easy as you can. Sending you my very best wishes.
ReplyDeleteHi Kate, I didn't comment on your previous post, but meant to, but I have been thinking about you. I was going to say that I heard somewhere that cancer doesn't first present with pain, that the fever does sound like an infection or blockage, and that if it's a big lump wouldn't you have noticed it sooner unless it had come up quickly, like a blockage or infection might? However, I have no expert knowledge, and I'm quite sure you know more than me. Just wishing I could give some comfort. Your mindfulness, acknowledging the thought, etc, is an excellent technique and helpful in many situations; hope it helps as a stress reliever. All best wishes, look after yourself and do let others do the same : ) Still thinking of you, Jen
ReplyDeleteBeautiful pictures - right out of a fabulous food magazine! Lovely light. I never buy hazel nuts because they are expensive - would be great to pick my own.
ReplyDeleteYou are young, beautiful and strong. You are going to be perfectly fine, hugs to you,
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I am just now finding your blog and am your newest follower. You have stunning photos and I love how you write. I read your last post and my heart goes out to you. Prayers for good news.
ReplyDeleteBiggest Love back at ya. I'm sending fast-flowing water thoughts your way, willing you to sail safely down stream.
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Thinking of you lots dear Kate. xxxxxx
ReplyDeletehi beautiful kate.. sending you lots of love xxx lisa farinosi
ReplyDeletei love to read your blog when i can get round to it.. it always touches me in the loveliest way.. thank you and thinking of you through the tribluations of being human.. such a gracious one you are! xx
Biscotti sounds the perfect tonic for the soul:)
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ReplyDeleteHugs and love to you across the skies sweet lady XX
ReplyDeleteOh! So lovely to see your fresh hazelnuts - nothing worse than getting a dud one in the packety bought mix and nothing better than their green goodness when they're just off the tree. Thank you again for sharing with us. Charlotte.
ReplyDeleteHuge hugs to you. Xxxxxxxx
ReplyDeletethankyou Take care Kate and listen to that farmer boy of yours.....take it easy. Hazel nuts, yum yum. xxoo
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Kate, after reading your blog for three years, I feel as if you've got a LOT of good karma up your sleeve. Stay strong, and enjoy your biscotti xo
ReplyDeleteSending love to you Kate! Try apple and hazelnut muffins, yummy!
ReplyDeleteMuch love, positive thoughts and prayers coming your way Miss Kate. Apple and walnut cake with cinnamon is a family favourite here.
ReplyDeleteI remember when I went through my own cancer scare - the way my thoughts were rushing around, going in circles, playing out all the various scenarios. It was such a relief to find out that I didn't have cancer. I'm wishing you health and happiness and love.
ReplyDeleteDear Kate,
ReplyDeleteI am sorry about your problems, and I know how disturbing it must be to get no defnite prognosis right away. Waiting is the worste, but for what I know from here, USA, if it was in the slightest possible way suspicious, they would have never let you go home to wait, never in a day would that happen, and I am sure your country is just as up on all the latest treatment available. Take heart, my dear Kate, I am in you corner, woman to woman
Good Karma your Way, Love, Rita
Gorgeous Kate,
ReplyDeleteI've just read your last post (in fact scrolling with my chin while I sit on the floor holding one of each twins hands to get them to sleep). I'm so sorry to hear you're going through such a terrifying ordeal right now. How on bloody earth you made me laugh in your post is beyond me, but it was rather funny to picture the medical student undoing your bra. I am sending lots of love. You are strong and loved and absolutely amazing woman and I feel in my heart of hearts you will be okay. No matter what.
What a beautiful family you have! Such abundance and love just fill your blog. Keep breathing in that sweet air and abundance and love! Take care.
ReplyDeleteXxxx sending positive vibes!
ReplyDeleteSo much loving xx
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