Saturday, May 7, 2011

Love::heart::ache.

While its true that Foxs lane was created as an online journal of the stuff I make, somehow it has evolved to also be an outlet for me to express how I'm feeling and to capture a moment in time.

Right this minute in time I am not feeling all that great. I have constant butterflies in my tummy and I am having trouble eating and sleeping and concentrating.

On Monday my Dad is having heart surgery. I know its for the best. I know its routine surgery. I know its a small amount of time and then he'll have years of healthy, happy times across the road from us.

But he's my Dad and I adore him and it kills me to think of someone I love so very much in such agony. I can't stop myself from thinking about the details.

So this weekend I am squeezing these girlies and their Dad tightly and often. I am taking lots of pictures of them to take to my Dad in hospital. I am trying to be positive and normal.

We'll celebrate Mothers' Day with a bonfire and a quiet day at home and I'll be thinking of my Mum sitting by my Dad's hospital bed as he checks in and does all his tests.

I know it is officially Mothers' Day weekend here but why don't you give your Dad or the Dad of your kids an extra big cuddle. Dad's are pretty awesome.

xx

59 comments:

  1. Lovely post. Best of luck for your Dad. Looking at his grandaughter's beautiful faces will get him through!

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  2. Thanks for the reminder Kate, I know I don't hug my dad nearly enough. Your mother's day plans sound really lovely, enjoy it & your gorgeous family. Thinking of you and I wish your dad well..xx

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  3. Thinking of you and your family. Hugs!

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  4. Everything is going to be just fine. Not that I'd be able to calm the preliminary angst either - but it will. 'Kay? Got it? Happy Family Day, I say. x

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  5. Hey Kate, totally natural to feel the way you are.

    How lovely to have such a wonderful relationship with your dad (getting teary here, sorry)

    I'm sure he will be in wonderful care and I wish him a speedy recovery and your mum peace of mind in this situation.

    Times like this make us stop and think how important certain people are in our lives. I'm sure all your family would know just how much you love and care for them.

    Enjoy your Mother's Day.............

    Claire X

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  6. dads are pretty awesome and i hope yours is on the mend soon.

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  7. well said, we'll be thinking of your dad on Monday and I hope you can be at peace that day as he has his surgery x

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  8. I know how you are feeling Kate xx

    My Dad had a stent put in after suffering a heart attack two years ago. He was 73 years old and luckily a very fit man.

    Since Dad's operation his health has improved, eats healthy, exercises and is looking terrific. I am so thankful because he could have been gone in an instant. I always tell him I love him, and give him big hugs...

    Sending love and best wishes to you all and I hope your Dad makes a full recovery. I am sure he will love the photos of your girls.

    xTania

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  9. After losing my dad in February I understand your post. Hugs to all and look forward to getting a positive update on your dad after the surgery.

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  10. With my Dad still in hospital and with an unfavourable prognosis, I really *get* this post, Kate. Life can be so bitter-sweet. Hang in there, Sweetheart. You're doing a stunning job with your little family. J x

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  11. Hugs to you and your family Kate. I watched my dad go through quadruple heart bypass surgery at age 50 (I'd just turned 21) We are so lucky to still have him, as his father died of a heart attack at 57, and his brother died just a week ago from the same thing at 56. His other brother had a mild heart attack about 13 years ago, now on medication. So lucky to get warnings and be able to do something about it. Dad is so careful with what he eats now, and he now has 4 grand-daughters to play with and keep him young. I hope the operation goes smoothly, so he can enjoy many more years of good health. xx

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  12. Lots of hugs to you and your family Kate, I hope everything goes well and your Dad recovers quickly. He's going to so love these photos of the girls!XXXX♥♥

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  13. I hope everything goes well for your dad. Take care of yourself. A great reminder to let all your family know how much you love them too. My dad died when he was 35 and I was 7.

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  14. sending lots of good wishes to you and your family, Kate. The other day, you linked to your dad's blog, and I spent a good while reading through his posts and thinking how he and my dad would have a bit in common (and laughing at his orthopaedic surgeon jokes!). Dads really are awesome xx

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  15. Dad's are awesome aren't they Kate...and your Dad always makes me smile with his sweet, thoughtful comments on your blog. I hope he is well again really soon.. annnd i hope you have a lovely Mothers Day because i have no doubt you are one sweetheart Mumma. manda x

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  16. Such huge hugs for you Kate! You said it, it's routine. Your Dad will be back home before you know it. My hubbies Dad had heart surgery and he's been sooo much better since.

    ps That top pic is sooo sweet! : )

    xx Alisa

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  17. These photos of your girls are gorgeous Kate and enough to brighten anyones spirit. Wishing your dad a speedy recovery and a very Happy Mother's day to both you and your mum :)
    xx

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  18. Imagine the love from Farm Doc when his heart is even stronger??? can you imagine!!!!??????? It will be enormous!!! Telling you to try not to think about the details is futile, you will cos that is what you will do and that is what I would do to, but really it probably isn't very helpful so to think about how strong he will be afterwards, well maybe that might be better to focus on. I am squeezing here. I lost my dad a few years ago( not heart related) and i miss him everyday, Dads are so special and we always need them for a long time. Kisses and hugs. xxoo

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  19. I would be exactly the same Kate. I hope everything goes well with the surgery and he will be back smiling and healthy before you know it. Lovely photos of the girls too. I hope you manage to have a lovely Mother's Day tomorrow and yes cuddles for the dad's too as our man has been away all week long and we miss him!

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  20. I'll be thinking of your Dad, you and your family.
    Take good care of yourself.
    Anne xx

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  21. Big Mwah to your dad and a double whammy to the surgeons and doctors who will be preforming their magic on your trusty old man.

    I hate watching, waiting and sitting. I'm bloody hopeless at it but I always tell myself one day in the calendar isn't to bad to sacrifice for many more months and years.

    You'll be right...just grayer!! xx

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  22. Sending you and yours lots of good energy and love.
    x Sandi

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  23. Sending you, your dad and your family all my love well wishes, hope and sympathy!
    You must be worried out of your mind, but remember this is what we do, and it's always OK. we like to imagine the worse but how many times has that happened.
    Anyway from reading his blog, and his comments he doesn't seem like he's going anywhere soon, still has plenty more to do and say.
    biggest ever love
    xoxo

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  24. Oh Kate. No wonder you can't stop your mind going a hundred miles an hour. I would be in the same boat. All the best to your Father and Mother. Hope your lovely family brings you welcome distraction and you can keep your hand and mind occupied in the meantime.

    xx

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  25. Best wishes to your dad and your family for Monday Kate. My parents are visiting at the moment so I will appreciate tomorrow with my folks more than I would have before reading this post. Gorgeous photos of your girlies. x

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  26. Kate... I don't often write but this touched home. It is not routine for your Dad or your family. Medical procedures are only "routine" for the medical profession, like all the stuff you do each day is routine for you. Our fear and worry are as great as our love. You are all in my thoughts JC

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  27. Dear Kate...
    I saw my dad today and gave him a big hug...
    I am also sending you a hug my dear...
    I think you may need a few extra...

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  28. Darling Kate,
    My thoughts are with you at this time. I feel the same.
    Your Dad (my brother) is SO VERY SPECIAL to all of us.
    So we hope & pray that this time next week Ross will be well on the road to a speedy recovery.
    And yes, just imagine all the extra love he'll have to share with all of us, his family.
    Sending you lots of hugs & kisses & my love
    Sue xx

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  29. Gorgeous photos of your girls!

    Dads are awesome and i hope yours is back on his feet soon!

    x

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  30. Thinking of you Kate and your family, stay strong your Dad will be fine...hugs Jen xx PS
    Gorgeous photos of the girls!

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  31. Thinking of you and your family Kate. Great photos of the girls too :)

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  32. Here's hoping your faher is in god hands and is on the other side soon all strong and healthy.

    Beautiful girls.

    Happy Mother's day to you.

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  33. Oh Kate my kindest thoughts are with you and your dad and of course your mum .

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  34. feeling for you all and knowing that no matter what anyone says, you WILL worry.
    thinking of you & hoping that you get to squeeze your dad really soon.
    Dad's are pretty awesome, I miss mine so much and I know what it's like to watch someone go through so much pain.

    many hugs to you all Kate ♥

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  35. Hope your dads op is a success. And i hope you have a wonderful mothers day NOT worrying about him. Xo

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  36. My thought and hopes are with you. Cherrie

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  37. Best of luck to your Dad Kate, I can understand your worry, even though you KNOW everything will be just fine.

    My oh my, your girls are just so lovely. And beautiful portraits of them all - moments in time perfectly captured.

    Enjoy your bonfire, that sounds like a grand way to celebrate mothers day.

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  38. Oh hun! I'm sorry you're going through those type of emotions right now. I would be the same if my Dad were going through that. It sounds like he's got a whole lot of love on his side, with a wonderful daughter and wife and probably plenty of others.
    Thinking of you and sending positive vibes for a great outcome on Monday :o)
    Enjoy your Mother's Day Kate, you deserve it xo
    P.S. Gorgeous pics!

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  39. Big hugs Kate.I know what you are going through.xx
    Have a fun day tomorrow with your gorgeous girls and farmboy.
    Bonfires are my kids' favourite thing to do at their grandparents.

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  40. KIA KAHA as we say here in NZ.. which means HAVE STRENGTTH.
    I hope it goes well for your Dad and the rest of you.

    Thank you for your inspiring and wonderful blog.
    linda

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  41. Thinking of you Kate. We are giving the man of the house extra big cuddles here too. He leaves on a jet plane tomorrow.

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  42. good luck to your dad during his surgery & recovery time. your right we don't hug our loved ones enough beautiful reminder.

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  43. I know exactly what you are talking about. My dad has just been in melbourne having surgery. They found his carotid artery (in the neck) was 95% blocked, and then went on to discover a vein from his heart was also blocked. It was not a nice thing to go through. After nearly a month he and Mum are finally back home. So my thoughts are with you, I know I got in lots of hugs and "i Love yous" whenever I could!

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  44. Sending you all love and good wishes for next week. x

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  45. All the best to you and your dad x Leah

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  46. To darling Kate.
    I write this comment two hours before my admission to hospital.
    I thank you for your love and support - not only recently but throughout your whole life.
    When I meet tough times during my postoperative convalescence, I know I'll feel strong knowing you and your darling husband and daughters are all with me in spirit. And I'll think of the three beautiful photographs in this blog post.
    We all have years of love and wonderful experiences to look forward to. This - and all my darling ones - will be spurring me on.
    I adore you. (But you know that already.)
    Your dad.
    xxxxx
    P.S. Thank you also, to each person who's wished me well via comments on this post. I'm sincerely grateful.

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  47. I hope your dad comes through his surgery with flying colours.

    Your girls are gorgeous.

    Happy mothers day to you.

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  48. oh kate - my heart goes out to you. my dad had a quadruple bi-pass five years ago. it came out of the blue and it was so sudden. the day he had his surgery i sat in his study and i realised i hadn't finished with him yet - there was so much more wisdom that he needed to impart. it's a scary time but as you probably know, medicine has advanced so much these days and i'm sure all will be okay. but i'm sure that no matter what we all say, you will only relax once you know he's okay. big prayers to the universe are going out for you and your family tonight.
    l
    xx

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  49. Cuddle those loved ones Kate. Cuddle them tight. I hope your dad's surgery goes really well.
    xxx

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  50. Fingers crossed for your Dad Kate. Here's to a swift recovery and on to bigger and better things. Thinking of you all.

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  51. Hello sweet lady. Wow so much has been happening for you lately and i've been a complete slack ass at checking in. But something told me to check in this morning (up early with lists in my head of what to pack for hospital) and I'm so glad I did.

    Sending my thoughts your way for your Dad. You're right there is just 'something' about our dad's and your post had me immediately wondering how I'd be feeling if it were my precious Dad going in for surgery today. So I'm sending you good vibes and I hope you've got lots of yarn-y goodness to keep those nervous fingers occupied. xxx

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  52. thinking of you and your family today Kate xo oxo xox

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  53. I hope it all goes well today Kate. Kx

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  54. Dads' are very special, we should tell them this more often. Fingers crossed for a speedy recovery for your dad. He is lucky to have such supportive family. :)

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  55. Thinking of you and your family & sending big hugs.

    xx

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  56. I hope by now the procedure is over and you are all recovering. Big Hugs and best wishes for a speedy recovery.

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  57. Gorgeous pictures of the girls. I hope you dad is a-okay!

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